The Ballad of the Bullkroks Part 5: The First Time's The Harm


Awake. Floating. Aware. This thing, eyes blinking, drinking in the glow from outside. Not yet knowing what it was, not yet knowing there was an inside and and outside.

This thing reaching, not yet knowing it had limbs. Feeling the tubes plugged into its orifices and spine, not yet knowing where its body began and ended.

This thing seeing. Watching the shadow-play of outside-not-outside. Dark shapes anchored by dark lines. Other shapes growing near and stopping awhile. Seeing, not yet knowing that it was also being seen.

This thing waiting. Not yet knowing what time was. Waiting for the unknown, for unknown time.

This thing flexing. Stretching. Tensing muscles, making fists, not yet knowing it had hands.

This thing knew but one thing: fight. It surged its fist forward, meeting resistance, meeting an unstoppable barrier where inside met outside-not-outside. Fight fight fight. More fists, add in more limbs, kicks from feet, not yet knowing what feet were.

Feeling. Sensation in the body, in the spine. And then this thing knew nothing. Not even fight.

More time. Unknowable time. More shadows. Unknowable shadows.

And then everything changed.

This thing, aware of sound for the first time because sound changed: dull hum to sucking roar. This thing, aware of inside-outside for the first time because something moved at the bottom of inside and this thing was spilled into outside.

This thing was a newly vatborn Goliath juve, smooth-skinned, naked and lean, his muscles not yet pumped and worked to adult size. He rolled on the floor below the amneo-creche he'd just been released from, retching up the feed tube that was jammed down his gullet, wrenching himself away from the nutrient inpipes that pierced the length of his spine. He reached over his shoulders and fumbled about to make sure he was free. His hands ran over smooth skin, catching on a tough nodule at the base of his neck. This stung when he touched it, and his hands sprang away.

Blinking the vat-fluid from his eyes, he stared around at outside. It was a bright place, lined with sharp lights that correlated with the dim lights he'd seen inside. It was mind-blastingly big, big enough to contain eight more amneo-creches, each connected to banks of incomprehensible mechworks. The juve's world had just expanded in ways he couldn't have imagined mere moments before.

Strangest of all, it had others in it. Six of the other creches had just unloaded. Their contents were smooth-skinned, naked and lean. Each had the same face. The juve didn't know it yet, but he had the same face.

Two hadn't survived the evacuation. Where their fellows were coughing and wrenching out feed tubes, these two lay motionless, stillborn. Another didn't survive much longer. When he yanked the pipe from his throat, a gout of blood came with it. The blood didn't stop. His writhing lessened into twitching and then he was still.

It was the first death the remaining four saw. Instinctively, they liked it, for it tallied with the first thing they knew: fight.

This overriding, primal drive brought them all to their feet. They stalked into the open space between the creches, knees bent, testing their muscles shakily.

One of them staggered abruptly, clutching his chest. A few seconds later he was in spasms on the floor, red foam bubbling from his mouth and nose. He choked on his last breath.

The other three, fearing they might likewise drop dead at any moment, wasted no more time: their aggressive impulses demanded release. The charged forward, flailing into each other, grappling in a heap of hateful flesh.

Their hands were claw-twisted, clutching, trying to find purchase on slippery skin. A jabbing finger found an eye and popped it open, spilling jelly. Hands got a grip on a jaw and leverage on the deck, heaving and tearing a face in two. Clacking teeth ripped out chunks of meat. More leverage, and then cracking bones – arms, fingers, legs. Balled fists lashing out, fracturing cheekbones and ribs. Blood, and animal snarls.

One fighter went limp. A second grew tired. The third kept at his task. Before long, the only sounds in the birthing chamber were this last juve's ragged breath, and the wet smack of his bloodied fists hitting dead meat again and again and again. He would've kept at it until his heart gave out.

But then a door hissed open beyond the ring of vats, and four strangers entered the room. The juve scrambled backwards, riding a slick of gore away from the newcomers. He saw that they were shaped like he and his dead foes were, but they were somehow larger, adorned with strange fabrics, plates and irregular shapes. Something within him panged a connection with them, a sense of kinship – but the kill-drive was stronger. He growled and crouched, ready to fight again.

From the shadows, one of the newcomers made a sound. It made no sense to the juve, but it had some sort of purpose. Two of the others moved quickly to either side of him. Their arms were strangely long – then hey realised they weren't arms, they were carried things, not part of the body. He was trying to comprehend this when the shadowed newcomer barked, and his fellows jabbed forwards with their carried things. The juve found himself near choking as the things hooked around his neck and held him still.

Another noise from the shadowed one and the fourth newcomer moved around the perimeter of the space, out of sight. The juve heard hissing and whirring behind him, and wriggled in the grip of the hook things.

The shadowed one stepped forward into the light. The juve gazed up into a face he recognised – the same face as his dead birth rivals, his own face, but different. Heavier, textured, marked by creases and lines.

This same-different face growled with strange purpose again. The juve heard hissing and whirring, much closer behind him this time, and then something made contact with the tough nodule at the base of his neck. Everything flared agonising red, and then black as he plunged into unconsciousness.

Fraggenstein stared down at his vat-son. 'Carry him over to the rest-slab.'

Half a shift later, the juve was coming round. Fraggenstein had kept vigil throughout, updated by the trusted doc who ran this secret gene-smithy.

The juve was wincing and blinking, working his waking jaw.

'Guhhhhh-guh-Goliath,' he slurred, trying to sit up.

'That's right, young bron. You're a Goliath, vatborn and true' said Fraggenstein, placing a hand on the juve's chest and easing him back down. Behind his back, he held a sharpened cleaver. Slug delivery didn't always produce the desired results.

The juve relaxed. 'I'm, uh, I'm Goliath. Are you boss-meyn?'

'I'm a boss-meyn, aye. And more than that, I'm your gene-sire.'

The juve pondered this. 'That... that is why your face is like mine?'

Fraggenstein nodded, satisfied. The juve was a thinker – here was early indication that the slug input had taken well, and that this secret vat project, buried in the backalleys of the Hablocks, had been worth the creds he'd poured into it. The tech details were beyond Fraggenstein's ken, but the docs had woven his gene-pattern together with some of the mightiest strains in the whole house lineage, like the finest alloys that came off the forge-lines. A weapon of time-honed Goliath steel, ready for testing in battle.

'Aye. You are my gene-make. Come with me and show me how you fight. Live to earn the name Fraggenstein, or die trying.'